It is one thing to realise one thing and to experience that thing.
Even you know that this is how things going to be and this is the end, you still try to fool yourself about everything. Why? I don't know... I really don't.
Wish there is someone who could tell me.
I remember the movie once said, if someone pray God to give hima happiness, do you think God will just give him/her happiness? or do you think God will give him/her a chance to have the happiness? So everything could be a test to what you pray for?
I don't understand, maybe it's a payback of what I've done for others, or maybe it's a test of what I prayed for, yet how much do I have to payback and how much test do I have to pass?
